Since we launched our #SmashingStigma campaign many people from outside the studio have been in touch to share their story. Fanny Parker has shared this blog, her musical blog about how song writing has helped her…
I have a story. And it’s still unfolding. I write my chapters through song. My song writing is my therapy. I have lots of songs that reflect the hard times I’ve endured mentally during my 20’s. I wrote to sort my head out. It was like therapy for me. Kept me sane at a time when I was battling.
I’m really pissing myself off
I’m really pissing myself off
I can’t stop crying
the slightest thing can start me off
so tired of crying
I look so pale, I feel so thin
Withdrawn blood to test within
some call it stress
I call it mess
It’s a mess I can’t address
Coz I’m feelin pretty low
Get me high I can neglect
A time in my life which is now
Get me out
Get me out of this hole
It’s not my health
It’s not the break up
It’s not my wealth
It’s not my future
Which is concerning me
It’s a god dam combination
And it’s really, really getting to me
To the point, that I just want to break
Break out of this hole, I can’t breathe
Break out of this hole and just break free
This is my fault
I saw it coming
I was warned
But I didn’t believe it would happen to me
And now I’m crying in defeat at the sight of
me
Coz I’m in such a mess
I don’t know where to begin
To stop the crying
Get me out of this hole
God I’m so stressed!
I can’t sleep, the clock ticks
A bed creeks, I get up and look outside
It’s so still, it’s so cold
Then I see, a reflection of me
Blurred identity in clear cut glass
Looking hard, she’s looking back at me
I hear a voice saying, wake me please
Shake me break me
Take me from behind
The back of beyond
Coz it’s too dark for me
I can’t see clearly
I feel lower than I’ve ever been
So I need you to
Shake me break me
Shake me break free
Shake me, shake me
Wake me, slap me please
You can find out more about Fanny Parker on Facebook and Soundcloud
On February the 11th 2018 we launched a crowdfunding campaign. We want to start a conversation about mental health that is powerful. No more treading on eggshells. We are not invisible, We do not want to be hidden away. Our work in the studio and shop is #SmashingStigma every day, and now we are going to be a little noisier.
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As part of the campaign we are also looking for more blogs about mental health stigma, so please get in touch if you have a story to share.